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Maggie de Vries, Missing Sarah: A Vancouver Woman Remembers Her Vanished Sister. Toronto: Penguin, 2004.

Reviewed by Karina Vernon
The Rain 2:5 (September-October 2004): 5


Maggie de Vries’s affecting memoir of her sister’s life, Missing Sarah, testifies to the difficulty both of achieving a self-assured blackness in BC, and of writing, from a critical perspective, about that blackness. In an effort to understand her sister’s subjectivity, and in particular, the reasons why Sarah left their middle class home for the Downtown Eastside in the early 1980s, de Vries agonizes over the role race might have played in shaping and mis-shaping Sarah’s subjectivity. Although in the latter part of the book de Vries makes sensitive connections between Sarah’s life and the social, historical, economic and political contexts of sex work in the DTES that conditioned her experiences, the author does not make such connections between Sarah’s personal experiences of racialization, and the historical place of blackness in British Columbia.

Rather than make sense of Sarah as a raced subject by connecting her personal experiences of race and racism with the place blackness has historically held in BC, de Vries remains concerned with Sarah’s experience of adoption into a Dutch-Canadian family living in Vancouver’s almost homogeneously white neighbourhood, West Point Grey. Yet Sarah herself wrote candidly about her formative experiences of racialization. In her journal in 1996 Sarah wrote about schoolyard racism in elementary school. The language the children use leave little doubt as to the imagined place of blackness in BC’s racial imaginary:

It was walking home after school that I had a deep inner fear for. Some kids used to wait for me to start walking home. They would then push, shove, kick, punch, yell, throw stones and swing sticks at me. Chasing me half a block from my house. Nigger, coon, spook, jungle bunny, moon cricket, spear chucker, spade, and a few more. (12)

De Vries then registers her response to reading this journal entry:

I want to say that what she says isn’t true. Could she have been going through all that and we didn’t know it? She never told any of us that she was being harassed to the extent that she describes, or that she was a victim of violence. She goes on to describe being hit in the head with a rock. But surely that didn’t happen then. And surely those hurtful names are an accumulation over years, not ones spilling out of the mouths of the kids of West Point Grey. (12-13)

That de Vries doubts Sarah’s testimony by implying that those hurtful names are appropriate to another context, not West Point Grey, is dismissive of the history of racialization here. Though the names are drawn from the store of fantasies about blackness produced by the western imagination, they aren’t imported or foreign to this context. It’s important to remember the history of segregation in BC, from 1858 through the 1960s. Unofficial segregation kept black folks out of churches, theatres, public houses and out of political power as well. It pressed Vancouver’s black residents into the Strathcona neighbourhood of Hogan’s Alley, only blocks away from Sarah’s future Princess Street home.

Given the context of Sarah’s growing up, it’s not surprising that hers is an un-self-assured, oftentimes repressed, blackness. De Vries narrates an incident from the early 1980s, around the time Sarah began running away. Sarah’s face looked “oddly white” (52):

“What have you got on your face?” Bo asked Sarah.
“Makeup,” Sarah said.
“It doesn’t look like makeup,” Bo replied.
“Well, it is.”
“Are you trying to make your face white?”
“Fuck off and leave me alone!”

[...]

“When I saw Sarah doing what she was doing,” Bo says, I tuned in. [...] She was whitening her face. Sarah was living in a very, very white world.” (52-3)

The distance of British Columbia from the large and long-standing black communities of central- and Maritime-Canada, as well as the operation of regional discourses, which slide blackness underneath important Asian-Canadian and South Asian-Canadian histories, means that blackness has historically not had a strong presence in this regional imaginary. As Wayde Compton puts it, black history in BC is

not common knowledge, or it wasn’t three or four years ago. It’s getting to be now maybe, but it wasn’t common knowledge as to when the [black] pioneers came here, who Mifflin Gibbs was, or who Sylvia Stark was, any of those people. It’s not like a tradition that’s passed on, so it’s not like in the Caribbean. If you’re from Jamaica, there are certain things you just know about your history, or if you’re African-American you just know things. You grew up knowing about the Civil Rights Movement even if you’re fourteen years old. But it’s not like that in BC if you’re black. (WCL 132)

When Sarah wrote in her journal in 1997 that “I have no people. I have no nation and I am alone,” (69) her sister understands it as a criticism of her adoptive family. But it’s possible to read Sarah’s writing as a bigger statement of how difficult it has been to become confidently black in BC, where, until very recently, there have been few archives for historical and cultural black memory. Projects such as Wayde Compton’s Bluesprint, which anthologizes a wide variety of black and mixed-race experiences on the west coast, recovers ontological ground which had previously been denied by the absenting and repression of blackness in BC’s regional discourses. It is becoming a little easier to find our way home.


Works Cited
Compton, Wayde. Bluesprint: Black British Columbian Literature and Orature.  Vancouver: Arsenal Pulp, 2001.
Wilkinson, Myler and David Stouck. “The Epic Moment: An Interview with Wayde Compton”. West Coast Line 38 (2002):131-145.